I decided to revive my astrology blog. It has been a few years. The interim has seen me still immersed in my astrology craft. A personal healing journey took precedence over public blogging.
Amongst some life occurrences of this time were 2 most blessed events. The births of 2 more grandchildren in 2016 & 2017.
Naturally as an astrologer I was onto the birth charts as soon as they drew breath. I impressed onto my son the need for accurate birth times.The first independent breath from the mother is the classed as the moment of birth for astrological purposes. It is believed at that point the Universal energy switches on the personal life force of the native.
My precious Grandson was born with Saturn conjunct the Ascendant, exact at 10 seconds. I noted Saturn was also square Neptune & Chiron in the 4th house. I was concerned but not surprised to hear he had fluid on the lungs through birth complications. I explained to my son his beloved baby may have fears of water & may have a weak chest due to his initial life experience of struggle for breath. I also explained he is not destined to live with it because it seems to be deep seated fear based which he can overcome. Neptune rules fluid, the 4th house is our ancestral roots & deep foundations. Saturn rules seriousness and hard work. The Ascendant rules our identity and personality. Chiron rules our weakness to heal & learn from. The conjunct aspect shows Saturn is integral and fused to his Ascendant giving him as overall filter of a Saturn type of personality ie serious, mature for his age and hard working. The square aspect is an aspect of challenges that require action to overcome.
I also urged for my grandson to be taught to swim as soon as they could because I believed he would have a fear of water. Yet his Chiron shows to overcome this fear will help him on many personal levels eg breathing, fear facing & inner self belief. He also has the potential to help teach & heal others in this regard once his own lessons are learnt.
As life would have it my little Grandson & his family moved quite a distance to the coast last year. Neptune's domain is all around him in geography & culture. His parents immediately enrolled him in swimming lessons. Unsurprisingly he detested the lessons. He has also been diagnosed with Asthma recently. His parents will persevere with his swimming. His confidence is very slightly increasing but I foretell this little one is going to take a long time & a lot of patience to become proficient in the water. The effort will certainly be worth it on many deep & life affirming levels. This is the Saturn energy.
In comparison my one and only Grandaughter was born 13mths after my little Grandson. This little lady has Mars conjunct the Ascendant at 2 degrees and Neptune in a tight Trine aspect from the 10th house. She too has swimming lessons & loves the water. The instructors have been amazed at how well she has taken to learning to swim as one of the younger ones. She seems to have no fear of the water and in fact needs to be constantly watched as, without hesitation, she just loves to jump into the pool and go under the water. For her the water is pure delight. She has been termed "a natural" & a "little mermaid". Mars conjunct the Ascendant shows an impulsive and somewhat dare devil energy. Neptune in the 10th shows her swimming reputation as the 10th house is the house of reputation and public status. The Trine aspect is an easy aspect that shows a natural flow of energy within the native.
I am very interested in generational astrology. Looking at my Grandson's Neptune square Saturn, it is also in my own chart. My Saturn is in the 4th house and Neptune in the 12th house. We are both the eldest sibling to a close in age younger sibling. We both had to be responsible from a very young age. My 4th house Saturn shows my responsibilities seem to focus on home, family & the ancestors. My Grandson's Saturn seems to focus on his identity, physicality & personality. My Neptune is in its house of rulership, the 12th. This gives Neptune the best forum in which to express its energies eg. Spirituality, imagination, sacrifice & artistic expression. My Grandson's 4th house Neptune shows lack of consistent boundaries at home, imaginative pursuits at home, kindness but instability at home. So the difference in expressing this same energy aspect is that I look to my own home and ancestral roots to feel secure & stabilise my imaginative fears and psychic challenges. Whereas my Grandson will look to his own identity and physical presence to feel secure and stabilise his home and family environment.
Patterns seem to repeat within family astrological charts. I believe we are all part of larger soul groups. These soul groups are very often repeated in ancestral lineage. We are all energy patterns and frequencies that resonate & attract the karmic soul lessons we need to evolve and heal soul groups' energy vibrations. By living our journey we are fulfilling our Universal contract from this earthly dimension. Our Earth bound frequencies are embodied in dna genealogy. Each individual soul has lessons and knowledge to imprint & impart. Ego is individual, soul is part of the whole. The whole is Spirit. No matter how many times we or our past & future ancestors incarnate on this plane, it is for the benefit of the whole. I believe astrology is one of many journey maps we are given to navigate.
Monday, September 30, 2019
Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Antares Royal Watchtower of the West
One of the 4 Royal fixed stars is Antares. It is viewed at 9 degrees 47 mins of Sagittarius at this current time from Earth's orbit. It moves a degree approximately every 74 years. Archangel Uriel is connected to Antares. It is in the heart of the Scorpio constellation. Antares vibrates to Mars and Jupiter. If Antares conjuncts a personal planet or point in a birth chart within a degree orb, it is significant for the individual.
Yours truly has Antares conjunct the Ascendant exactly. From my research I find it is said to be connected to violence, a violent death, eye problems, the lower right side of the 5th lumber, toughness, mental alertness and courage. It gives help with banishing & binding evil spirits, understanding and memory. Now it is prudent to remember it is the ancients who interpreted the energy via their era's perceptions.
To break it down to my lifetime, of which I have now lived over 50 years of, I acknowledge that violence, and violent death has been a recurrent theme for me. Thankfully I have escaped the final ending so far. As for banishing and binding evil energy, looking at my experiences through another level, I definitely agree that I have been able to do this on a number of occasions. I have felt Spiritual protection both around me and within me at certain dire times of my life. Mars is connected to guns, metal and surgery. Mars is also connected to anger, impulsiveness and males. All of these have been themes that have been a part of my death defying encounters. As for my eyes, it is just the usual aging eyesight and "surfer's eye" from harsh sunlight. So far not interfering too badly with my sight. The only other thing I've always had is night blindness. Interesting, as symbolically Antares is the watcher of the West where the Sun sets, so does my vision too it seems.
Lower right side lumber pain is something I do have from time to time now that I am ageing. A recent xray showed a fused sacral joint in that region that is a common birth defect. It may not show any symptoms until normal aging degeneration of the skeleton occurs.
As Antares is affiliated with the West, I always seems to be in positions of having to look into the Sun as it is setting. Driving home or doing my daily walk, very regularly coincides with the sun setting in my eyes. Without planning it, my natural rhythm seems to coordinate with this time of the day. I must acknowledge I do get a deeply fulfilling and soul satisfying replenishment of Spirit while drinking in a Sunset.
I have strong Scorpio overlay energy to my birth chart, even though my Ascendant is Sagittarius. This used to bring me much consternation for some years in my astrological studies, until I learnt and applied fixed stars to my chart interpretation. The confusion was further amplified as my 2 deg Sag Moon is conjunct my Ascendant and my birth time is only 40 mins from a Scorpio Ascendant. There have been many conversations with my parents getting them to double check my birth time because there is no hospital recording of the time. My parents' unyielding version of events and a chart rectification still gives me a Sag Ascendant. But I now accept that it is the red binary star at the heart of the Scorpion that has imprinted my physical appearance and identity. The sign of Scorpio is prominent in my family, so astrological dynamics would agree that I too would very likely carry the Scorpio energy somewhere prominent in my chart.
With Jupiter and Antares ruling my chart, I am hoping the Great Benific's (Jupiter) influence is stronger than the Lesser Maleific's (Mars). I interpret this as Spiritual protection and truth (Jupiter) gives courage (Mars) and it is through courage that I find Spiritual protection and truth.
Yours truly has Antares conjunct the Ascendant exactly. From my research I find it is said to be connected to violence, a violent death, eye problems, the lower right side of the 5th lumber, toughness, mental alertness and courage. It gives help with banishing & binding evil spirits, understanding and memory. Now it is prudent to remember it is the ancients who interpreted the energy via their era's perceptions.
To break it down to my lifetime, of which I have now lived over 50 years of, I acknowledge that violence, and violent death has been a recurrent theme for me. Thankfully I have escaped the final ending so far. As for banishing and binding evil energy, looking at my experiences through another level, I definitely agree that I have been able to do this on a number of occasions. I have felt Spiritual protection both around me and within me at certain dire times of my life. Mars is connected to guns, metal and surgery. Mars is also connected to anger, impulsiveness and males. All of these have been themes that have been a part of my death defying encounters. As for my eyes, it is just the usual aging eyesight and "surfer's eye" from harsh sunlight. So far not interfering too badly with my sight. The only other thing I've always had is night blindness. Interesting, as symbolically Antares is the watcher of the West where the Sun sets, so does my vision too it seems.
Lower right side lumber pain is something I do have from time to time now that I am ageing. A recent xray showed a fused sacral joint in that region that is a common birth defect. It may not show any symptoms until normal aging degeneration of the skeleton occurs.
As Antares is affiliated with the West, I always seems to be in positions of having to look into the Sun as it is setting. Driving home or doing my daily walk, very regularly coincides with the sun setting in my eyes. Without planning it, my natural rhythm seems to coordinate with this time of the day. I must acknowledge I do get a deeply fulfilling and soul satisfying replenishment of Spirit while drinking in a Sunset.
I have strong Scorpio overlay energy to my birth chart, even though my Ascendant is Sagittarius. This used to bring me much consternation for some years in my astrological studies, until I learnt and applied fixed stars to my chart interpretation. The confusion was further amplified as my 2 deg Sag Moon is conjunct my Ascendant and my birth time is only 40 mins from a Scorpio Ascendant. There have been many conversations with my parents getting them to double check my birth time because there is no hospital recording of the time. My parents' unyielding version of events and a chart rectification still gives me a Sag Ascendant. But I now accept that it is the red binary star at the heart of the Scorpion that has imprinted my physical appearance and identity. The sign of Scorpio is prominent in my family, so astrological dynamics would agree that I too would very likely carry the Scorpio energy somewhere prominent in my chart.
With Jupiter and Antares ruling my chart, I am hoping the Great Benific's (Jupiter) influence is stronger than the Lesser Maleific's (Mars). I interpret this as Spiritual protection and truth (Jupiter) gives courage (Mars) and it is through courage that I find Spiritual protection and truth.
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
My Pict...orial. Progressed Scorpio Moon in the 12th house.
Past life dreams are something that are occasionally gifted to me through Spirit. As my Progressed Moon moved into the life death & rebirth sign of Scorpio and transits my 12th house of "all that has gone before", I was recently given another vision of a previous lifetime.
These visions are distinctly different to my usual dreams. They have no discernible trace to everyday happenings nor any symbols reflecting conscious or subconscious thoughts, memories or feelings I may have. They are also different to any prophetic dreams I sometimes get. They are short mini scenes but are packed with clues that I can historically verify afterwards through my own research. This to me is the most validating aspect of my past life visions. I can't begin to tell you the sense of awe & deep knowing of truth I feel when the research trail unfolds. I have always dreamt in colour and have always had a rich dream life. In my conscious state I am a very visual type. I can see in my mind's eye colour, design, scenes & plans. I learn through sight & touch. So this medium seems tailored to me.
In this past life dream I was being guided to look at a long stone wall, punctuated with periodic turret type structures. I was told Hadrian's Wall. This was repeated in my right ear a number of times so I would not forget. My son's name is Adrian and I was trying to adjust the word to it, hence the insistence of repeating "Hadrian's Wall" to me. There was a battle surrounding me. The time period looked medieval based on clothing. It was mountainous countryside. I was directed to look at a female who was sitting on a pillar or high pedestal that was nonetheless not ornate, but depicted a high rank. She was dressed in strange garb, earthy green tones, and had some type of symbols painted on her. She spoke in a strange language to me. She looked just like my cousin. My Father's niece. She recognised me but remained aloof as was expected of her station. The feeling within the group was one of pride, determination, warrior energy & clanship. Our group was coming southward. We were against warriors coming North. Our group felt connected like we were kin. I was then shown the sea and we were sailing past the wall. We were worried about passing the land that is England.
I began researching Hadrian's Wall. Interestingly my family on my Father's side thought we may be from Roman descent via our Scottish ancestry and our family trait of big noses. Although I have never felt an affinity for that culture. After this vision & my research, I now truly believe and feel deep inside that we are from Scottish Pict descent.
The Romans were fighting Scotland and pushing further North into Scotland from England. The Romans noted the strange tribes from the Highlands that fought ferociously against them (in my dream we were coming down from the North to the wall). They were the Picts. They were described as being family clans that had their lineage through the matriarchal line, unlike the common lineage of the patriarchs as in most other cultures. (My female cousin was the matriarch of the clan. Our family lineage is traced back through our paternal grandmother's line!)The Picts spoke an unusual language (as did my cousin to me in the dream), the Picts were noted for symbols painted/tattooed on them (my cousin had symbols on her skin), the Picts fought off Rome's legions (the battle depicted in my vision), the Picts were known as mighty sailors and the Pict navy was feared by the Romans (the symbol of us sailing on the ocean past the wall in my dream).
This is an except from Pictish Nation at halfmoon tripod:-
"It was Hadrian who decided that northern Scotland was not worth more legions, and so he pulled back the Empire to the Tyne and the Solway. There he built the famous wall which bears his name, seventy miles from sea to sea. Perhaps because of constant warfare and attacks against the wall, that Antoninus Pius advanced the frontier again to the thin Scottish neck between the Forth and Clyde. Thirty nine miles long and boasting twenty forts, it may have separated Pictish tribes on either sides of the wall. The wall was manned by the Second, Sixth and Twentieth Legions during its forty years. The Picts never ceased attacking it, and in fact the Romans lost it and regained it twice before finally giving it up by the end of the second century and retreating to Hadrian's Wall. We lean from the words of Cassius Dio that the northern tribes "crossed the wall, did a great deal of damage and killed a general and his troops."
This was symbolised in my dream when we were sailing on the ocean past the wall with many forts
My paternal grandmother's name is MARTIN.
Martin — Màrtainn. Associated with Clans Cameron and MacDonald
MacDonald — MacDhòmhnaill, Clann 'IcDhòmhniall, Na Dòmhnallaich (MacDonalds). "Son of Donald"; the largest Highland clan, who at one time controlled the entire western Scottish coast from the Butt of Lewis to the Mull of Kintyre, and also had lands in Ireland and the Isle of Man. They can trace their ancestry to Conn of the Hundred Battles, the High King of Ireland in the 1st C. Donald comes from Donald of Isley, grandson of Somerled, lord of Argyll. The Clan Alister, the MacAllisters of Loup, come from Donald. MacDomhnall, MacDonnell, Donald, Donaldson, MacDonnell, Donell. MacDonald of ClanRanald, MacDonald of Glengarry, MacDonald of the Isles, MacDonald of Staffa.
Cameron — Camshron, Na Camshronaich (Camerons). From the Gaelic cam-shron "crooked nose" or "hooked nose". There were once three branches: the MacSorleys of Glen Nevis, the MacMartins of Letterfinlay, and the MacGillonies of Strone. Through all the troubles with the England, the Camerons were loyal to the royal Stuarts. Cameron of Erracht, Cameron of Lochiel.
from the Pict Clanns of Albann-
As another interesting fact, my great grandfather, Thomas Martin, fought in the Boer War. This is recorded for posterity in parliament record due to his local shire wanting to preserve it due to the historical significance.
These visions are distinctly different to my usual dreams. They have no discernible trace to everyday happenings nor any symbols reflecting conscious or subconscious thoughts, memories or feelings I may have. They are also different to any prophetic dreams I sometimes get. They are short mini scenes but are packed with clues that I can historically verify afterwards through my own research. This to me is the most validating aspect of my past life visions. I can't begin to tell you the sense of awe & deep knowing of truth I feel when the research trail unfolds. I have always dreamt in colour and have always had a rich dream life. In my conscious state I am a very visual type. I can see in my mind's eye colour, design, scenes & plans. I learn through sight & touch. So this medium seems tailored to me.
In this past life dream I was being guided to look at a long stone wall, punctuated with periodic turret type structures. I was told Hadrian's Wall. This was repeated in my right ear a number of times so I would not forget. My son's name is Adrian and I was trying to adjust the word to it, hence the insistence of repeating "Hadrian's Wall" to me. There was a battle surrounding me. The time period looked medieval based on clothing. It was mountainous countryside. I was directed to look at a female who was sitting on a pillar or high pedestal that was nonetheless not ornate, but depicted a high rank. She was dressed in strange garb, earthy green tones, and had some type of symbols painted on her. She spoke in a strange language to me. She looked just like my cousin. My Father's niece. She recognised me but remained aloof as was expected of her station. The feeling within the group was one of pride, determination, warrior energy & clanship. Our group was coming southward. We were against warriors coming North. Our group felt connected like we were kin. I was then shown the sea and we were sailing past the wall. We were worried about passing the land that is England.
I began researching Hadrian's Wall. Interestingly my family on my Father's side thought we may be from Roman descent via our Scottish ancestry and our family trait of big noses. Although I have never felt an affinity for that culture. After this vision & my research, I now truly believe and feel deep inside that we are from Scottish Pict descent.
The Romans were fighting Scotland and pushing further North into Scotland from England. The Romans noted the strange tribes from the Highlands that fought ferociously against them (in my dream we were coming down from the North to the wall). They were the Picts. They were described as being family clans that had their lineage through the matriarchal line, unlike the common lineage of the patriarchs as in most other cultures. (My female cousin was the matriarch of the clan. Our family lineage is traced back through our paternal grandmother's line!)The Picts spoke an unusual language (as did my cousin to me in the dream), the Picts were noted for symbols painted/tattooed on them (my cousin had symbols on her skin), the Picts fought off Rome's legions (the battle depicted in my vision), the Picts were known as mighty sailors and the Pict navy was feared by the Romans (the symbol of us sailing on the ocean past the wall in my dream).
This is an except from Pictish Nation at halfmoon tripod:-
"It was Hadrian who decided that northern Scotland was not worth more legions, and so he pulled back the Empire to the Tyne and the Solway. There he built the famous wall which bears his name, seventy miles from sea to sea. Perhaps because of constant warfare and attacks against the wall, that Antoninus Pius advanced the frontier again to the thin Scottish neck between the Forth and Clyde. Thirty nine miles long and boasting twenty forts, it may have separated Pictish tribes on either sides of the wall. The wall was manned by the Second, Sixth and Twentieth Legions during its forty years. The Picts never ceased attacking it, and in fact the Romans lost it and regained it twice before finally giving it up by the end of the second century and retreating to Hadrian's Wall. We lean from the words of Cassius Dio that the northern tribes "crossed the wall, did a great deal of damage and killed a general and his troops."
This was symbolised in my dream when we were sailing on the ocean past the wall with many forts
My paternal grandmother's name is MARTIN.
Martin — Màrtainn. Associated with Clans Cameron and MacDonald
MacDonald — MacDhòmhnaill, Clann 'IcDhòmhniall, Na Dòmhnallaich (MacDonalds). "Son of Donald"; the largest Highland clan, who at one time controlled the entire western Scottish coast from the Butt of Lewis to the Mull of Kintyre, and also had lands in Ireland and the Isle of Man. They can trace their ancestry to Conn of the Hundred Battles, the High King of Ireland in the 1st C. Donald comes from Donald of Isley, grandson of Somerled, lord of Argyll. The Clan Alister, the MacAllisters of Loup, come from Donald. MacDomhnall, MacDonnell, Donald, Donaldson, MacDonnell, Donell. MacDonald of ClanRanald, MacDonald of Glengarry, MacDonald of the Isles, MacDonald of Staffa.
Cameron — Camshron, Na Camshronaich (Camerons). From the Gaelic cam-shron "crooked nose" or "hooked nose". There were once three branches: the MacSorleys of Glen Nevis, the MacMartins of Letterfinlay, and the MacGillonies of Strone. Through all the troubles with the England, the Camerons were loyal to the royal Stuarts. Cameron of Erracht, Cameron of Lochiel.
from the Pict Clanns of Albann-
Clann CAMERON
This clan is one of the most ancient of Highland clans, proud of their reputation of being fiercer than fierceness itself. Sir Iain Moncreiffe, official Cameron clan historian, has traced their origins back to the kingdom of Fife and the Royal line of Macduff. Certainly, theirs is a Fife-place name, Cam brun, Gaelic for Crooked Hill. Moncreiffe noted the persistence of the letter B when the name appears in medieval documents, verifying cambrun is the correct originating name. He also pointed out the similar heraldry of the Camerons and the Earls of Fife.
Letterfinlay is in the Scottish Highlands. "the crooked nose" is a feature of my paternal grandmother's line!
During the 13th and 14th centuries, the most important tribes in Lochaber were the Clan Donald, the Chattan Confederation, and the Mael-anfhaidh. Traditionally, the Mael-anfhaidh consisted of three main tribes; the MacMartins of Letterfinlay; the Macgillonies (Mac ghille-anfhaidh); and the MacSorlies of Glennevis (Sliochd Shoirle Ruaidh). The MacMartins are said to have provided the chief of this confederation of tribes. Donald Dubh Cameron, already mentioned, married the daughter of the MacMartin chief and either through this or by his own prowess assumed the leadership or captaincy of the confederation of clans which later formed the Clan Cameron.
This seems to be the link for me between the clans Martins, Camerons & Donalds.
Interestingly, after learning about Pict culture, in this lifetime there have unknowingly been comparisons to my Pict ancestry. I gave all my children my surname ie my maiden name (now my Grandson is carrying it on) , the matriarch holds the clan's lineage and directs its descendants success, the women on my patriarchal Grandmother's side are implacable fighters for family & hearth, we see ourselves as equals in all ways, our male relatives by blood also view female relatives as strong & equals, I first felt compelled to get a tattoo many decades ago, long before it was fashionable for women to do so, I chose to raise my children as a single mother, also at a time when it was still frowned upon by society, my 2 older children have actively avoided having their natural fathers in their lives without feeling any lack, I have been viewed & told by males that I am a formidable opponent, my daughter married a descendant of clan Ranald (she too is the matriach of her family & the future matriarch of our tribe, just ask her siblings & cousins lol), one of my son's fathers is from clan McDonald, I named my sons Adrian & Lachlan. My paternal Grandmother named her 3 boys, Donald, Richard & Douglas. I am 5th generation Australian btw.
I have further researched my paternal Grandmother's lineage and discovered that my Great Great Grandfather, Alexander Martin, married Catherine Murray. An excerpt from houseofnames.com
"Murray was first used as a surname by descendants of the Pictish people of ancient Scotland."
I have further researched my paternal Grandmother's lineage and discovered that my Great Great Grandfather, Alexander Martin, married Catherine Murray. An excerpt from houseofnames.com
"Murray was first used as a surname by descendants of the Pictish people of ancient Scotland."
Clann MURRAY
The usurpation of the Scottish throne by Malcom Canmore's sons by his second wife, the English Queen Margaret, was for a long time resisted in the north of Scotland. Her youngest son, David, gave feudal powers in the (eventually) conquered Pict district of Moray to Lord Freskin, son of Ollec, a descendent of the ancient Pict Mormaers of Moray, whose grandson assumed the name of William of Moray (Pict translation is Moireahh, meaning men of the sea, later Anglicized to Murray).
This family was to become the most powerful by far of all Pict clans in existence. Two of its members actually ruled Scotland as Regents (one who rules when the actual ruler is unfit or absent). Successive Norman Kings indulged in ethnic cleansing of the north of Scotland and removed many lower echelon families in favour of Anglo-Normans, but the Murrays were above all that. Freskin had been a loyal supporter of the Scottish Monarchy, and therefore his descendants were favoured with generous grants of land. The old Pict province of Moray was the mot powerful of all its kingdoms, and its king automatically inherited the throne of all Albann.
His son, Andrew Murray, captured the castles of Urquhart and Aberdeen from the English, and gradually extended his conquests south until he joined forces with William Wallace. In 1297, the two resistance leaders defeated the English at Stirling Bridge.
The present chiefs of the clan Murray are the Dukes of Atholl, and they command the only private army still allowed in Scotland..
As another interesting fact, my great grandfather, Thomas Martin, fought in the Boer War. This is recorded for posterity in parliament record due to his local shire wanting to preserve it due to the historical significance.
Friday, October 16, 2015
Loosening The Ties That Bind or Saturn Rewards
It has been almost a year since my last blog. Astrology could explain this with transit Saturn conjunct my natal Moon in the 12th house, which is also conjunct my Ascendant. It was approaching from Dec 2014 & exact from Jan. 2015. Saturn's final separation is at the end of Oct 2015. Saturn is heavy lessons taught through hard work and patience, with just rewards at the conclusion. Passing through my 12th house it highlighted my Spirituality, isolation, self undoing and the unconscious mind and hit my Moon which symbolises my sub conscious, emotions, family, home, children, the past and my female Yin. A very private, internalising time for me. As it further separates it will be an exact conjunct to my Ascendant. Thereby, I believe, requiring me to utilise the emotional maturity I have now been rewarded with to face any physical and/or identity challenges that the Ascendant represents. All I can be sure of is that once this time has all passed, it will not be repeated for another 28 years. This being the Saturn cycle orbit.
I have feared, faced and finalised (Saturn) my acceptance of hidden self sabotages (12th House). Loneliness (12th House Moon) has been internalised to be recognised as my need for independence (Sagittarius Moon). I have fully accepted my Crone phase of life (Saturn) illustrated perfectly with my decision to finally grow out my waist length silver (Moon Goddess) hair which is a commitment of patience (Saturn). Coincidently it will be complete once Saturn leaves my Ascendant (physical appearance).
I have seriously (Saturn) confronted and am now more self aware about my mental health condition (12th house, Moon). I have PTSD, with significant Dissociation, Anxiety & Depression from many past traumas. I have learnt how to work within my condition's limits and accept this. I have also accepted that healing needs a strong commitment and patience (Saturn) as it will take a long time to reverse the neurotransmitter pathways that have been laid down over many decades of trauma. Also I have accepted that some memories (Moon) will never be recalled. Basically I have learnt to accept the reality (Saturn) of what is.
I have also reaffirmed my strong Spiritual faith. I know that it is the only thing that is sure to stay lovingly with me no matter what. God, my God, is always walking with me and guiding my journey.
I have had family (Moon) responsibilities that seemed very limiting (Saturn). My elderly Father(Saturn) required knee joint replacement (Saturn) surgery. So his hospitalisation and convalescence was a duty I of course willingly accepted. This included helping my elderly mother as well and even branched into some visits and care errands for two of my beloved elderly aunts. I also had a caring role for another family member, my cousin, which required him living with me (Moon) for most of the year. This has been very trying (Saturn) for me as I really treasure my personal space and privacy in my home (12th house Moon). Saturn also rules the teeth and at present I am helping him to finalise a long time dental problem that contributes to his ill health. Did I mention the Moon rules nurturing and the Mother role? Hence my caring responsibilities.
I have feared, faced and finalised (Saturn) my acceptance of hidden self sabotages (12th House). Loneliness (12th House Moon) has been internalised to be recognised as my need for independence (Sagittarius Moon). I have fully accepted my Crone phase of life (Saturn) illustrated perfectly with my decision to finally grow out my waist length silver (Moon Goddess) hair which is a commitment of patience (Saturn). Coincidently it will be complete once Saturn leaves my Ascendant (physical appearance).
I have seriously (Saturn) confronted and am now more self aware about my mental health condition (12th house, Moon). I have PTSD, with significant Dissociation, Anxiety & Depression from many past traumas. I have learnt how to work within my condition's limits and accept this. I have also accepted that healing needs a strong commitment and patience (Saturn) as it will take a long time to reverse the neurotransmitter pathways that have been laid down over many decades of trauma. Also I have accepted that some memories (Moon) will never be recalled. Basically I have learnt to accept the reality (Saturn) of what is.
I have also reaffirmed my strong Spiritual faith. I know that it is the only thing that is sure to stay lovingly with me no matter what. God, my God, is always walking with me and guiding my journey.
I have had family (Moon) responsibilities that seemed very limiting (Saturn). My elderly Father(Saturn) required knee joint replacement (Saturn) surgery. So his hospitalisation and convalescence was a duty I of course willingly accepted. This included helping my elderly mother as well and even branched into some visits and care errands for two of my beloved elderly aunts. I also had a caring role for another family member, my cousin, which required him living with me (Moon) for most of the year. This has been very trying (Saturn) for me as I really treasure my personal space and privacy in my home (12th house Moon). Saturn also rules the teeth and at present I am helping him to finalise a long time dental problem that contributes to his ill health. Did I mention the Moon rules nurturing and the Mother role? Hence my caring responsibilities.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Impulse and Lord of the Underworld
Mars brings impulsive energy wherever he touches in a chart. Rash, headstrong, action orientated, fearless and a battle warrior. He is the natural ruler of the first house of self. He rules Aries, the first sign of the zodiac. Aries rules the head and resonates to "me, me, me".
Pluto is power and control. Wherever the Lord of the Underworld is lording, powerful forces are at work that revenge, regenerate, resurrect and reincarnate. Pluto is the natural ruler of the 8th house of birth, death, sex, psychology and other's money. He rules Scorpio, the 8th sign of the Zodiac. Scorpio rules the reproductive organs and resonates to "I know".
Mars is the courage to battle demons. Pluto is the demon. Working in harmony, these two planets energies ensure supreme victories. It is when these two energies are jarring that life altering, ultimately life affirming, situations can arise. The energy clash requires bravery to face the darkness of the underworld.
Whilst looking at my family's charts recently I noticed Mars was to conjunct my youngest grandson's natal Pluto in his 6th house. Knowing the potential of this aspect I investigated further. His natal Pluto is in opposition to his natal Mars in the 12th house. This aspect was about to be transit triggered. My grandson is 6 yrs old. The 6th/12th axis can relate to health and hospitals. With the Mars and Pluto interplay I could see potential for an accident.
Before allowing my protective, maternal instincts to take over, I looked to his mother's (my daughter) chart for confirmation. Low and behold Mars was making a direct hit to her natal Neptune in the 5th house at the same time. I interpreted this as Mars-male, impulsive action, activating her Neptune-psychic, hospital, water, gas, in the 5th house area of-children, fun, sport.
Right then time to ring and gently forewarn. Astrology is a great tool to empower. Not only does it give identification to energies potential. It gives time frames. Free will and destiny don't have to be opposite ends of the stick.
I received a phone call late last night. My daughter rang to tell me my grandson had split his head open at the shops earlier while climbing a trolley barrier and falling back onto metal floor tracks. Typical Mars. My daughter was in the process of saying "stop, get down or you'll fall and crack your head." when it happened. My daughter said she could see it actually happening in her head right before it did. Classic Neptune. She rushed over and held him and willed him to open his eyes or scream out as he was just lying still (Pluto, fear, death). Then her hand just filled with blood (Mars) and her clothes were soaked in it. He began to cry and she said she had felt she was in a bubble with only herself and her son. The crowd and pandemonium had a far away feel.( Neptune and I believe Spiritual protection). My grandson was taken to hospital (12th house, Neptune), received stitches (Mars, Scorpio, Pluto), without anaesthetic (Neptune).
My daughter said there was nothing she could have done. She had been watching her son so carefully during my time frame warning. They had witnessed two car accidents right near them and she had prevented him from playing in his tree house before gale force winds suddenly came through. This accident was split second, inside, right next to her, while she was being served.
Destiny and free will combined. Let me explain. The planetary energies were going to play out. This was predetermined before birth. A destiny or Karma exchange was inherent at this time. The means to attaining the life lesson or soul directive was immaterial. The deeper imprint was the goal. The high road or the low road is choice. To listen to our instincts, conscience, common sense or inner calling is choice. To notice signs, omens, symbolism or life currents is choice. I can surmise the soul imprint for my daughter, grandson, older sibling who witnessed and even the supporting cast members of the public and shop staff, medical personal etc. All who had a small or large part to partake of the energy. Either to give or receive their own karma. But that would be arrogant of me as I have already played my part and received my lesson/gift. Also a soul's journey is deeply personal and individual. The Higher Universal Energy/ Goddess/God etc is beyond mortal complete comprehension as it is ALL. The ripples of destiny go wider and deeper, through many incarnations, than I could possibly fathom at this point of my evolution. Also words cannot completely convey Spiritual insight and communication. I believe my daughter's conscious free will may have offset other potential outcomes, thereby negating more sinister/dangerous/life threatening outcomes. Beliefs and thoughts really do create our reality in this dimension.
Pluto is power and control. Wherever the Lord of the Underworld is lording, powerful forces are at work that revenge, regenerate, resurrect and reincarnate. Pluto is the natural ruler of the 8th house of birth, death, sex, psychology and other's money. He rules Scorpio, the 8th sign of the Zodiac. Scorpio rules the reproductive organs and resonates to "I know".
Mars is the courage to battle demons. Pluto is the demon. Working in harmony, these two planets energies ensure supreme victories. It is when these two energies are jarring that life altering, ultimately life affirming, situations can arise. The energy clash requires bravery to face the darkness of the underworld.
Whilst looking at my family's charts recently I noticed Mars was to conjunct my youngest grandson's natal Pluto in his 6th house. Knowing the potential of this aspect I investigated further. His natal Pluto is in opposition to his natal Mars in the 12th house. This aspect was about to be transit triggered. My grandson is 6 yrs old. The 6th/12th axis can relate to health and hospitals. With the Mars and Pluto interplay I could see potential for an accident.
Before allowing my protective, maternal instincts to take over, I looked to his mother's (my daughter) chart for confirmation. Low and behold Mars was making a direct hit to her natal Neptune in the 5th house at the same time. I interpreted this as Mars-male, impulsive action, activating her Neptune-psychic, hospital, water, gas, in the 5th house area of-children, fun, sport.
Right then time to ring and gently forewarn. Astrology is a great tool to empower. Not only does it give identification to energies potential. It gives time frames. Free will and destiny don't have to be opposite ends of the stick.
I received a phone call late last night. My daughter rang to tell me my grandson had split his head open at the shops earlier while climbing a trolley barrier and falling back onto metal floor tracks. Typical Mars. My daughter was in the process of saying "stop, get down or you'll fall and crack your head." when it happened. My daughter said she could see it actually happening in her head right before it did. Classic Neptune. She rushed over and held him and willed him to open his eyes or scream out as he was just lying still (Pluto, fear, death). Then her hand just filled with blood (Mars) and her clothes were soaked in it. He began to cry and she said she had felt she was in a bubble with only herself and her son. The crowd and pandemonium had a far away feel.( Neptune and I believe Spiritual protection). My grandson was taken to hospital (12th house, Neptune), received stitches (Mars, Scorpio, Pluto), without anaesthetic (Neptune).
My daughter said there was nothing she could have done. She had been watching her son so carefully during my time frame warning. They had witnessed two car accidents right near them and she had prevented him from playing in his tree house before gale force winds suddenly came through. This accident was split second, inside, right next to her, while she was being served.
Destiny and free will combined. Let me explain. The planetary energies were going to play out. This was predetermined before birth. A destiny or Karma exchange was inherent at this time. The means to attaining the life lesson or soul directive was immaterial. The deeper imprint was the goal. The high road or the low road is choice. To listen to our instincts, conscience, common sense or inner calling is choice. To notice signs, omens, symbolism or life currents is choice. I can surmise the soul imprint for my daughter, grandson, older sibling who witnessed and even the supporting cast members of the public and shop staff, medical personal etc. All who had a small or large part to partake of the energy. Either to give or receive their own karma. But that would be arrogant of me as I have already played my part and received my lesson/gift. Also a soul's journey is deeply personal and individual. The Higher Universal Energy/ Goddess/God etc is beyond mortal complete comprehension as it is ALL. The ripples of destiny go wider and deeper, through many incarnations, than I could possibly fathom at this point of my evolution. Also words cannot completely convey Spiritual insight and communication. I believe my daughter's conscious free will may have offset other potential outcomes, thereby negating more sinister/dangerous/life threatening outcomes. Beliefs and thoughts really do create our reality in this dimension.
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Shadow Boxer
Mars is the warrior planet. Heat, passion and action are the traits associated with the red planet of impulse. When the Mars energy goes into battle through a 12th house transit our karmic and unconscious fights ensue.
The 12th house is the house of the unseen. It is a deeply Spiritual part of the birth chart. Retreats, seclusion, institutions, anonymity, secrets and sacrifice are the shadows that dwell there. All that is imprinted on your soul from before this incarnation swim around in the unconsciousness of the 12th house. It is the house of self undoing and secret foes because of our own illusions, delusions & karmic debt.
Mars transit of the 12th house is a challenging time. The planet and house are not comfortable together. Mars takes approx. 2 years to transit a chart so will spend approx. 2months in a house. Patience with a challenging transit is definitely not one of Mars's strong suits.
Mars is at the start of my 12th house transit. Basically it will be about fighting my hidden fears. I currently have Saturn, the heavy duty task master, in transit through my 12th house also. Saturn has been plodding through here for over 2 years and not due to leave any time soon. I am about to put my hard earned lessons to the test. But wait there's more. I also have my Natal Neptune in its house of rulership in the 12th. Neptune makes hard natal aspects to Saturn, Venus and my MC/IC axis. Then there is my natal Moon conjunct the Ascendant from the 12th house who makes hard aspects natally to Uranus and Pluto.
I see Mars as the trailblazer who will ignite my hard natal aspects, overtaking Saturn and burning with courage and energy to clear a pathway through. My dreams may become my torches to guide and light my way. My Spiritual faith may fire up my soul with courage. Strategic actions behind the scenes may slay my dragons. Acting on our out my fears may burn me. Impulsively embracing shady deals or characters, pie in the sky dreams or occult dabbling without armour could inflame delusions and harm me mentally and or physically. Acting on my psychic intuitions will be my battle weapon.
Working hard in solitude, planting the seeds in the womb of the unseen for the time Mars crosses over into my 1st house will be using this transit in a positive way.
I am foreseeing dealings with hospitals (12th house) medications/anaesthetics/(Neptune) accident, injury or surgery/surgeon (Mars), parents (MC/IC axis), bones, knees, restriction, responsibility (Saturn), family, fluid, emotion (Moon) unexpected, restructuring(Uranus & Pluto).
Of course deeper issues for me will be brought up by any occurences that involve the above themes. Loneliness, isolation, dependence, restructuring of responsibility etc will require inner Spiritual faith to battle on.
The 12th house is the house of the unseen. It is a deeply Spiritual part of the birth chart. Retreats, seclusion, institutions, anonymity, secrets and sacrifice are the shadows that dwell there. All that is imprinted on your soul from before this incarnation swim around in the unconsciousness of the 12th house. It is the house of self undoing and secret foes because of our own illusions, delusions & karmic debt.
Mars transit of the 12th house is a challenging time. The planet and house are not comfortable together. Mars takes approx. 2 years to transit a chart so will spend approx. 2months in a house. Patience with a challenging transit is definitely not one of Mars's strong suits.
Mars is at the start of my 12th house transit. Basically it will be about fighting my hidden fears. I currently have Saturn, the heavy duty task master, in transit through my 12th house also. Saturn has been plodding through here for over 2 years and not due to leave any time soon. I am about to put my hard earned lessons to the test. But wait there's more. I also have my Natal Neptune in its house of rulership in the 12th. Neptune makes hard natal aspects to Saturn, Venus and my MC/IC axis. Then there is my natal Moon conjunct the Ascendant from the 12th house who makes hard aspects natally to Uranus and Pluto.
I see Mars as the trailblazer who will ignite my hard natal aspects, overtaking Saturn and burning with courage and energy to clear a pathway through. My dreams may become my torches to guide and light my way. My Spiritual faith may fire up my soul with courage. Strategic actions behind the scenes may slay my dragons. Acting on our out my fears may burn me. Impulsively embracing shady deals or characters, pie in the sky dreams or occult dabbling without armour could inflame delusions and harm me mentally and or physically. Acting on my psychic intuitions will be my battle weapon.
Working hard in solitude, planting the seeds in the womb of the unseen for the time Mars crosses over into my 1st house will be using this transit in a positive way.
I am foreseeing dealings with hospitals (12th house) medications/anaesthetics/(Neptune) accident, injury or surgery/surgeon (Mars), parents (MC/IC axis), bones, knees, restriction, responsibility (Saturn), family, fluid, emotion (Moon) unexpected, restructuring(Uranus & Pluto).
Of course deeper issues for me will be brought up by any occurences that involve the above themes. Loneliness, isolation, dependence, restructuring of responsibility etc will require inner Spiritual faith to battle on.
Friday, February 7, 2014
Chiron Return at age 50
I am currently undergoing my Chiron return. I am in the last stages of this transit. Chiron is known as the "wounded healer". Chiron is now in the sign of Pisces. It takes aprox. 50 yrs for a Chiron cycle.
In my natal chart Chiron is in the 4th house. This is the base house. The house of foundation and ancestral roots. My wound and potential to heal is within this part of my psyche. The part that houses family, home, the past and my inner security base.
The Chiron return will bring back the deep wound that we were born into. It shows us where we have healed ourselves and what is still raw. We have had approx. 50 yrs to work on our wound. It is a chance, painful in differing degrees for each of our individual journeys, to play catch up quick smart or languish in the regrets and broken systems we have created to cope, during our final years. Whatever the deep wound, it cannot be totally healed but at the highest outcome it can be positively managed and used to enlighten others' journeys. Thus lifting our own healing.
For me it has been a wake up call regarding owning my own home and land, the 4th house quintessential symbolism. My work, striving and ambition during this life has been towards having a place in the world that was mine. Where I could feel secure and be under no one's reign. This harks back to my natal Moon (natural ruler of the 4th house) in the independent sign of Sagittarius conjunct (joined tightly to) my Ascendant (my persona) and square (the challenge angle) to Uranus (planet of individualism and rebellion and natal ruler of my 4th house) AND Pluto (planet of power & control). My ancestors made a priority to have their own homes. My mother's paternal line even have a town named after them. They owned much of the land and were renown ship builders. They used the land to log the timber to build their ships. They built their homes, shops, church, school and even a race track! My father's father built his own home after being evicted in his 50's. His brother was a builder by trade and all the relations would get together on the weekends to help build the house by the river, even my Grandmother would work side by side the men. The day they were to finally move in, my Grandmother died, never realising her dream to live in her own home. My parents struggled for many decades to own their own home outright. They have lived in the same house for 50 yrs. This is my 4th house ancestral legacy.
I have rented while raising my children as a single mum. When I married at 30 I had saved enough through working, to help buy a rundown house out in the sticks which we did up and sold. It seems I have a knack for design and renovation. We then bought another rundown house nearer to the coast and did it up. I had also signed the tenancy of the house I had rented for 10yrs over to my now single mum daughter so she would have a secure home, which she is still in 7yrs later. I had given my husband a home when we first met as he had nowhere to live. I have given my cousin a home for the past few years and a caravan as he too has been homeless. I have offered to build accommodation on my land for my sister and her 3 children in the past when she was homeless. When I divorced I brought another rundown small property on a very scenic large block of land in the bush, with the small settlement I got, and have been doing it up also. But with my Chiron Return something happened.
I have had to face that owning my own home & land outright hasn't brought me the healing I need. I've had to come to terms with what I am truly longing for. Yes it is inner security and my own place in the world where I can be free & creative. But without family, friends or a relationship nearby, it is lonely. Ownership is false security. Allowing someone to live with you because you are lonely is a control trip waiting to happen. I have been in a situation over the past year where I've had to face being isolated, lonely & at risk. My health has suffered and was a wake up call in Nov.2013 to radically shift my focus. All from trying to have security through having my own land. Yes I can own my own home, I can live on my own in isolation, I can face & survive my deep fears and dangerous situations to do so. But my healing began when I broke down & admitted I didn't want to anymore. It has been a year of retreat & seclusion, of inner work and private growth. It has been scary, depressing and dark. I have the wound exposed now by Chiron and I am doing what I can to heal myself. I have just sold the house and am trying to move closer to family and the ocean. This means giving up the idea of owning my own land but I have found inside what I truly want to feel secure and I am going for it. Family, good friends and good health are the foundations I need to build from. My ancestors were clannish and ocean people. I hope to heal through planting my roots in a more enlightened mindset so I can truly LIVE the remainder of my life.
In my natal chart Chiron is in the 4th house. This is the base house. The house of foundation and ancestral roots. My wound and potential to heal is within this part of my psyche. The part that houses family, home, the past and my inner security base.
The Chiron return will bring back the deep wound that we were born into. It shows us where we have healed ourselves and what is still raw. We have had approx. 50 yrs to work on our wound. It is a chance, painful in differing degrees for each of our individual journeys, to play catch up quick smart or languish in the regrets and broken systems we have created to cope, during our final years. Whatever the deep wound, it cannot be totally healed but at the highest outcome it can be positively managed and used to enlighten others' journeys. Thus lifting our own healing.
For me it has been a wake up call regarding owning my own home and land, the 4th house quintessential symbolism. My work, striving and ambition during this life has been towards having a place in the world that was mine. Where I could feel secure and be under no one's reign. This harks back to my natal Moon (natural ruler of the 4th house) in the independent sign of Sagittarius conjunct (joined tightly to) my Ascendant (my persona) and square (the challenge angle) to Uranus (planet of individualism and rebellion and natal ruler of my 4th house) AND Pluto (planet of power & control). My ancestors made a priority to have their own homes. My mother's paternal line even have a town named after them. They owned much of the land and were renown ship builders. They used the land to log the timber to build their ships. They built their homes, shops, church, school and even a race track! My father's father built his own home after being evicted in his 50's. His brother was a builder by trade and all the relations would get together on the weekends to help build the house by the river, even my Grandmother would work side by side the men. The day they were to finally move in, my Grandmother died, never realising her dream to live in her own home. My parents struggled for many decades to own their own home outright. They have lived in the same house for 50 yrs. This is my 4th house ancestral legacy.
I have rented while raising my children as a single mum. When I married at 30 I had saved enough through working, to help buy a rundown house out in the sticks which we did up and sold. It seems I have a knack for design and renovation. We then bought another rundown house nearer to the coast and did it up. I had also signed the tenancy of the house I had rented for 10yrs over to my now single mum daughter so she would have a secure home, which she is still in 7yrs later. I had given my husband a home when we first met as he had nowhere to live. I have given my cousin a home for the past few years and a caravan as he too has been homeless. I have offered to build accommodation on my land for my sister and her 3 children in the past when she was homeless. When I divorced I brought another rundown small property on a very scenic large block of land in the bush, with the small settlement I got, and have been doing it up also. But with my Chiron Return something happened.
I have had to face that owning my own home & land outright hasn't brought me the healing I need. I've had to come to terms with what I am truly longing for. Yes it is inner security and my own place in the world where I can be free & creative. But without family, friends or a relationship nearby, it is lonely. Ownership is false security. Allowing someone to live with you because you are lonely is a control trip waiting to happen. I have been in a situation over the past year where I've had to face being isolated, lonely & at risk. My health has suffered and was a wake up call in Nov.2013 to radically shift my focus. All from trying to have security through having my own land. Yes I can own my own home, I can live on my own in isolation, I can face & survive my deep fears and dangerous situations to do so. But my healing began when I broke down & admitted I didn't want to anymore. It has been a year of retreat & seclusion, of inner work and private growth. It has been scary, depressing and dark. I have the wound exposed now by Chiron and I am doing what I can to heal myself. I have just sold the house and am trying to move closer to family and the ocean. This means giving up the idea of owning my own land but I have found inside what I truly want to feel secure and I am going for it. Family, good friends and good health are the foundations I need to build from. My ancestors were clannish and ocean people. I hope to heal through planting my roots in a more enlightened mindset so I can truly LIVE the remainder of my life.
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