Chiron Return at age 50

I am currently undergoing my Chiron return. I am in the last stages of this transit. Chiron is known as the "wounded healer". Chiron is now in the sign of Pisces. It takes aprox. 50 yrs for a Chiron cycle.

In my natal chart Chiron is in the 4th house. This is the base house. The house of foundation and ancestral roots. My wound and potential to heal is within this part of my psyche. The part that houses family, home, the past and my inner security base.

The Chiron return will bring back the deep wound that we were born into. It shows us where we have healed ourselves and what is still raw. We have had approx. 50 yrs to work on our wound. It is a chance, painful in differing degrees for each of our individual journeys, to play catch up quick smart or languish in the regrets and broken systems we have created to cope, during our final years. Whatever the deep wound, it cannot be totally healed but at the highest outcome it can be positively managed and used to enlighten others' journeys. Thus lifting our own healing.

For me it has been a wake up call regarding owning my own home and land, the 4th house quintessential symbolism. My work, striving and ambition during this life has been towards having a place in the world that was mine. Where I could feel secure and be under no one's reign. This harks back to my natal Moon (natural ruler of the 4th house) in the independent sign of Sagittarius conjunct (joined tightly to) my Ascendant (my persona) and square (the challenge angle) to Uranus (planet of individualism and rebellion and natal ruler of my 4th house) AND Pluto (planet of power & control). My ancestors made a priority to have their own homes. My mother's paternal line even have a town named after them. They owned much of the land and were renown ship builders. They used the land to log the timber to build their ships. They built their homes, shops, church, school and even a race track! My father's father built his own home after being evicted in his 50's. His brother was a builder by trade and all the relations would get together on the weekends to help build the house by the river, even my Grandmother would work side by side the men. The day they were to finally move in, my Grandmother died, never realising her dream to live in her own home. My parents struggled for many decades to own their own home outright. They have lived in the same house for 50 yrs. This is my 4th house ancestral legacy.

I have rented while raising my children as a single mum. When I married at 30 I had saved enough through working, to help buy a rundown house out in the sticks which we did up and sold. It seems I have a knack for design and renovation. We then bought another rundown house nearer to the coast and did it up. I had also signed the tenancy of the house I had rented for 10yrs over to my now single mum daughter so she would have a secure home, which she is still in 7yrs later. I had given my husband a home when we first met as he had nowhere to live. I have given my cousin a home for the past few years and a caravan as he too has been homeless. I have offered to build accommodation on my land for my sister and her 3 children in the past when she was homeless. When I divorced I brought another rundown small property on a very scenic large block of land in the bush, with the small settlement I got, and have been doing it up also. But with my Chiron Return something happened.

I have had to face that owning my own home & land outright hasn't brought me the healing I need. I've had to come to terms with what I am truly longing for. Yes it is inner security and my own place in the world where I can be free & creative. But without family, friends or a relationship nearby, it is lonely. Ownership is false security. Allowing someone to live with you because you are lonely is a control trip waiting to happen. I have been in a situation over the past year where I've had to face being isolated, lonely & at risk. My health has suffered and was a wake up call in Nov.2013 to radically shift my focus. All from trying to have security through having my own land. Yes I can own my own home, I can live on my own in isolation, I can face & survive my deep fears and dangerous situations to do so. But my healing began when I broke down & admitted I didn't want to anymore. It has been a year of retreat & seclusion, of inner work and private growth. It has been scary, depressing and dark. I have the wound exposed now by Chiron and I am doing what I can to heal myself. I have just sold the house and am trying to move closer to family and the ocean. This means giving up the idea of owning my own land but I have found inside what I truly want to feel secure and I am going for it. Family, good friends and good health are the foundations I need to build from. My ancestors were clannish and ocean people. I hope to heal through planting my roots in a more enlightened mindset so I can truly LIVE the remainder of my life.

confirmation of predicted outcome of Saturn transit 2012 blog

Back in 2012 I wrote about the transit of Saturn through my 12th house from Oct.2013 until mid 2014. I made mention of a restricting time possible for my father. On Dec 26th 2013I took my father to be admitted to hospital in a great deal of pain. He has been undergoing tests since discharge as it has been a hard to diagnose condition, with further screening required now for suspected cancer polyps.

Also during that blog entry I mentioned my daughter would experience a sad experience regarding an older male around that same time. She did. Her partner's Grandfather passed away 2 days before Christmas, necessitating a hurried trip back o/s where they had just returned from throwing a surprise birthday celebration for the gentleman.